Few days ago the Serbian summer camp ended. There was a Ratha-yatra, a 12 hour kirtan, many lectures, seminars and a good number of Balkan devotees. I presented how Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu gives certain highly important teachings through His dear and confidential devotees. Lila + teaching – a very absorbing combination.
But, the key-moment for me personally was this morning during the Deity darsan when I had an intimate moment with Sri Sri Radha Kunjabihari. Over the week an almost intolerable shoulder pain had attacked me. Sometimes I felt as if a spear was stiching in my right trapez muscle (no problem – no one dies from this!). Finally – when I was faced with the choice to either not give the morning lecture or pray – I turned to the Lord: „I am sorry to bother You – but either You take care of this shoulder problem or I can´t do my service.“ It seemed for a moment that the Lord looked at me radiantly and intently and I had the impression He asked back: „Well, what do you want?“ I took the opportunity, „Please help me do my service.“
Only 30 minutes later I was completely free from all pain. What struck me in the first place was His ´radiant presence´ on the altar (I can only describe it like that) and then that He is so caring. He seemed to have waited for me… That moved me almost to tears.
I remembered the quotation:
´When a devotee with all his heart and soul serves Krishna, dresses Him in nice garments and gives Him a flower, Krishna smiles. If you can get Krishna to smile on you just once, your life´s goal is fulfilled.´ (SP lecture, 12th November 1974)